[Review] Inside Out

Hey guys! I'm back with another movie review. :) It's been ages since I did one, I guess I haven't been to the movies or seen a good one at home that I really really like yet. Finally, the movie I have been waiting for since the first time I saw the trailer, Inside Out has been released in Malaysia yesterday. I only watched it today though. Also, I have a weird feeling that I won't be going to the theatres much in the UK. Yes I will be flying off to further my studies in the UK This coming September, You can totally check out my getting ready part 1, and then you'll see how I switched from being super laid back to being super rushed to get everything done. Part 2 isn't complete yet and I'll probably only post it right before I take off. Anyways, back to the topic at hand, the movie! I really loved this movie, It put things in different perspectives, it made me think about what was going on inside our minds (silly, I know but that makes it more fun!). There are so many perspectives to life and not just ours. Well, we have tendencies to follow our perspectives but the fact is that sometimes it maybe wrong and we do need to stop and listen to the perspectives of others. Okay, so that was the gist of the train of thought that was running through my mind while watching this movie. It's amazing to see animation come to life about what's going on inside our minds but beware it isn't all cotton candy and rainbows. Though we want to be positive there are times where we really need someone to just be there for us. Every component of us, our past and present, even those around us whether they're here to stay or it's just another stop for them, all these makes us who we are today. Our past experiences shape our character and personalities. The person we become in the future all depends on our actions now. Our future is not set in stone therefore, it can be said that one small action may cause a ripple in time which will change the future. :) I seemed to have diverted from the main topic here. hehe

The movie, is mostly about what goes on in a human mind and that every component of ourselves is important and there isn't a grain that could be lost, else we wouldn't be who we are. :) It has been put in a very simple manner in which even kids would be able to grasp the simple concept. Well done Disney! Overall, I really enjoyed this movie. you should totally watch the trailer if you haven't done so yet. :P

There are multiple other trailers but this is the one I love best! :D

-an enthusiastic kid

Believe, Love & Hard Work

This post is long overdue. I heard on mix.fm one of the mornings sometime last week about the number of divorce cases increasing. It's really saddening to hear off so many divorce cases. What happened to the happy endings? What happened to the vows we took on our wedding day? Did we not mean what we said? How is it possible that a couple could just end their relationship over one hurdle? I don't understand those that get a divorce over minor matters nowadays. *sigh* I do not get it at all. Apparently according to what I've heard on the radio, it is said that couples that get a divorce are in their twenties. Young people. All in their twenties. I love happy endings and have always believed in them since forever. The fact is I know it is hard to stay together especially in the face of adversity. However, if that is so then no one would be married today. :/ It isn't fate that makes a happy ending, it is YOU! Yes YOU! You decide on your happy ending. Believe it or not, your choices are what makes your future and determine your path. I love fairy tales and happy endings, I believe in mythical creatures that many say do not exist. I believe in giving everyone a second chance. Indeed I do, everything is water under the bridge after some time. I believe in everything. Hahaha I'm a dreamer and I believe that no matter how difficult a problem is there's always a solution and that no matter how impossible a dream seems it is still possible! Contradiction at work right.. Ahahaha all will be well if only you believe. It's the same with divorce cases, as long as both individuals work together as one and add faith and love, nothing is impossible. Though I also do believe that one should be careful when looking for ones other half, make the right choices. Follow your heart. That should do it. I think.. Hehhe I'm still learning everyday after all. There's a new experience waiting every single day! Disney, I'm glad my parents introduced them to me, for the first thing I learnt from them is to believe! :) 

-a dreamy kid-

Humans.

There is always hope. Sadly some people makes it seem like there's no hope at all. Attitude is so important, physical looks are genetics but how you carry and present yourself is attitude. You may have been born with certain characteristics but then attitude is one that you can train in a person. It doesn't seem like much but in the end it plays a huge role. You may be pretty or handsome but if you have a horrible attitude then forget it. Whatever else that's good that you have built before this will be in bits and pieces. Your reputation would be in tatters because of one blunder that you have committed. Is it all worth it? Is losing everything because of a small blunder worth it? Worse sometimes, when you socialise with someone and he/she doesn't have a really good reputation but it isn't totally bad either but then the bad might spill over onto you. Then what? Would you unfriend that person? It's scary what can happen in our society. Today we are judged extremely harshly by the society. Our society today knows no mercy. 

Yesterday

Yesterday was really full of surprises. :) We went on a shopping spree in KL. :D It was too early when we got there, the shops weren't open yet so we decided to get a cup of coffee and have something light to eat first. We stopped at Starbucks. I got a Truffle Raspberry Frappe. While I was queuing for my drink, there was this well dressed businessman. He's a really nice uncle, and he offered to get me my drink but I didn't accept. This was the first time someone has offered to get me coffee, but I felt so shy to just accept though if he asked for the third time I think I would accept. :D However, since he didn't offer I was like no it's alright I'll just get my own coffee. heheh It was a nice experience though. I didn't know what to make of it, and when I told my friends which were with me, they were already aware of it and laughing uncontrollably at our table. :/ JY, she was ahead of me when getting her coffee and she was just trying to not laugh out loud! I think I was giving off signals like someone please save me, and she just left me there. The one thing I liked was the french though. He greeted me with a "bonjour" which is hello in french but I responded with a stupid, "Huh?" Ridiculous right? Tell me about it, I was so shocked that I was sputtering a hello. hahah it also took me sometime to get a complete sentence out. My brain at that time was a jumbled mess. I'm pretty sure I looked silly stuttering like an idiot there. hahah 

Then we went to Pavilion for lunch and more shopping. I totally love the clothes that I got from Cotton On and Forever 21 that day. It was the best. Now I'm still contemplating whether or not to go back to H&M to get these pair of plain tees in black and white for RM50. Anyways, I got a black long sleeved shirt from Forever 21, for RM45. It was so comfortable and the best part, I don't think I'd feel cold wearing that shirt. After walking around there, we were hungry and so we decided to go get lunch. After much pondering and wandering around, we decided to have lunch at Manhattan's Fish Market. Then it took us awhile to decide what to eat. We finally decided on the basket that contains almost everything from fish fillets, to calamari, to onion rings, to fries and prawns. Yeah it's the entire package. :D

After lunch we walked to H&M which was outside Pavilion in Fahrenheit, I think. Heheh My sense of direction is horrible. >< Anyways, JY and Jaz both got something from H&M what I got was a view of a guy, the cashier, with the most fluffy hair and his make up application is so smooth. When he first caught my eye, I was like "woah!" and then I pretty much couldn't stop staring. It was like my eyes was glued to that perfection. hahah then, Jaz did something so embarrassing, she noticed me staring, and when it was JY's turn to pay, she went up to that cashier and said "I love you makeup. :)" she then pointed a me and said, "she does to but she's too shy to say so." I was like NOOOOO why did you say that. I'm pretty sure my face was totally burning up and I looked not like live tomato but my face felt so warm! >.< 

Hahah I will never forget today's events for as long as I live and for fear that I will forget any bit of information about today, I have written it down on my blog to be immortalised! XD This post should have ben done ages ago. Like the day after it happened or the day itself hence the title but as usual I procrastinated, and I've only finished it now.. hahahah That's all I have to say so..... TTFN! 

-a happy kid-

Upside Down

Hey Hey! Don't you think that a lot of things in the world today is all upside down. In my opinion I do think that many things or practices in today's world are indeed upside down. I feel that because we are in such a hurry to get to the next destination that we no longer take the time to sit back, feel and enjoy the feeling of that moment. Instead we are so focused on the future that the we have the tendency to overlook all those minor details that makes the moment special. In the end we just forget to live in the moment and just hurry on into the future. Then, the feelings of satisfaction, accomplishment, and happiness would disappear. In the beginning it would be there, but eventually it would just slowly disappear and you would then be insatiable. You'd be driven by the same force that drove you to succeed, to look for something that can fill up that empty hole. Then, awhile later you'd be wondering what is missing from your life. It's as if in the time you took to chase the goals you had, you had lost a piece of yourself and had forgotten how to live in the moment. Now there's a gaping hole and you're looking to fill it but you just don't know what to do that would fill it. It's as mysterious and elusive as the wind. It's sad to see how some people in the pursuit of happiness and success, lose sight of the little little things that can bring joy in our daily lives. Even in the game of love, everything is done upside down.

Hahaha. Most young ones now have understood the term dating wrongly. To say that they're dating is that the individual is single but available. In today's world, most people regard the word dating in the total opposite as to what it really is. The majority would say that they are dating someone when they are in a relationship. But why? Shouldn't you get to know a person before you start a relationship with them. You could be going on dates with different people instead of being tied down and after a period of time finding that it doesn't work and that well you're bored of this. There is another person catching your eye. I feel that we should revert to the times where we actually take one step at a time and go on several dates with a single person before deciding that it is good to build a relationship with them. I see no point in starting a relationship when you haven't even gotten to know the person. What happened to those times where the guy genuinely woos a girl? and a girl doesn't play mind games with the opposition and instead we just try to get to know the other party better while not being exclusive yet? Just because you have a crush on the person, and you're not in a relationship with the other party means you can't go on dates with that person. What the hell, just go ahead take all the time in the world you need to get to know that person. And always remember that your young and there will be more opportunities that will come knocking. :) Dating is just part of the love game, and it is a game that all of us get involved in one way or another. Sigh. I wish I could make sense of what I'm saying to even myself now. Sadly my mind is also extremely jumbled up. 

The reason behind this jumbled up post I titled 'Upside Down' is because it truly seems like the world and how everyone seems to take this 'love game' is seriously messed up. There are some that believes that there are a set of rules to follow but then again on some occasions it seems that all bets are off and no rules apply. I thought of just writing this down and seeing if it will make more sense to me. I guess it helped a little. There might be somethings that I mentioned above that might contradict each other, but then again it's just my confused self talking. Recently also, I have a couple of friends that seem to be going through a hard time and that made me really confused as they did things that I would never have thought to do and at the same time my principles have been broken, then again they're my friends so I don't want to be judgmental and just be there for them. However, I'm finding that a little hard to do as my brain and heart are telling me 2 totally different things. Oh wells, I'll just deal with it as it comes. :/ I'm going to end it here before I become more jumbled up. It's too messy in my mind now for any of this to make sense but I think I do get the gist of it now. :P 

-a confused kid-

So much Wasted Effort...

Well, to start off. Harloo! I haven't been blogging in ages. >.< I feel bad for neglecting my blog but anyways. Some people in life that you meet are just meant to bring trouble for you and just create havoc. Even though annoying, but there are still life lessons that can be learnt from these sort of people. First would be figuring and learning the traits of these characters. Secondly, through their mistakes we can always learn what to do and not to do without having to go through the experience ourselves. Thirdly, you would think that they would have had more common sense to not do stupid things like that and find the entire time you've been with that person extremely exhausting and annoying. Finally, you'd just not even bother about them, I find it such a waste of time even with all the lessons I can learn from them.

I believe in the fact that although there are lots of people that you think did not benefit you by walking into your life, those that cross paths with you are meant to for a reason. One of the few phrases that I picked up in life is "Everything Happens For A Reason", be it good or bad. Every individual that comes into my life has definitely taught me something  before leaving no matter how significant or insignificant the lesson, it is still something right? Whether or not they continue to walk with you in life is a different matter altogether but it is also closely intertwined here. In a general sense, I would like to have everyone that came into my life to walk together towards our future but that is never the case, yes for some of them we do keep in touch and that helps us walk together hand in hand down the path. For others it may be that we happen to be walking in the same direction and so we will be side by side, encouraging and helping each other for most of the time we're together. However, there's this one more type of person that is extremely annoying. The kind that just comes into your life pretends to be your friend and then leeches off you for whatever purpose. I call this last category, the leeches! These people usually approach you with a hidden agenda which to me is totally intolerable. Here I am genuinely treating you like my friend, truly caring and what do I get? Stabbed in the back? Fed lies? As if I'm some kid that didn't know what's going on? Getting taken advantage of? Oh wow I never signed up for this but then again in life you don't get to sign up for only the nice things. Eventually, life would throw a curve ball in your direction and when this happens you either fall when it hits you or you manage to divert this curve ball elsewhere. It's when you overcome trials like this that you can say that there is growth. However, dealing with things like these are exhausting both mentally and physically, and at the end of the day you'd probably think that I've wasted so much of my precious time on this. Like WTH?! I should've just ignored you. That would've made things so much easier, but then there wouldn't be growth. Give it a few months, perhaps then you would see the subtle changes in yourself.

In my opinion, I wouldn't call this a waste of time instead I'd call it a waste of effort. Just recently I've had a few falling outs which, well if I didn't say it hurt then that would be a lie, yes it hurt like hell. I always hated the feeling of being lied to or betrayal. However, there's no sure foolproof way to evade that. I found out then that it doesn't matter how bad it hurts but it matters whether or not you can find the courage to stand up and go on with life. I allow myself to weep in the beginning it would be for the friend I lost, and then it would be for my stupidity for completely trusting this person without questioning and then finally I'd tell myself that that person was so not worth your tears, save them for someone who deserves it. When I am able to accept that fact then I can confidently say that I have overcome that obstacle. However, sometimes crying or just spilling the beans to a confidante is really helpful. It helps release the pent up emotions in your chest and speeds up the healing process as well. Sometimes falling outs that have occurred is not completely one person's fault but then again there are those rare times where it is completely the other party's fault. Recently, I've had my fair share of falling outs, both in this year and the last. It's never nice to have a falling out but then some can be patched up and some just can't. I'm writing about this because I believe that this is my closure to all those horrid event's and that this year would be a better one for me. As I've said in a post before, it's always sad to see anyone go but sometimes it is inevitable, you just have to else this individual may just resemble a tutor which you'd have to get rid of but it's so difficult to actually sever all ties with another human being. I do still cherish the times I've had with them but then those will be preserved as memories and nothing more, because that person may have left you or hurt you in someway, or it's simply just as simple as them changing suddenly for the worse. It's a really hard task trying not to judge. However, there is another idiom I picked up is "Actions Speak Louder Than Words". Yeah I'll try my best to not judge but when you repeatedly do the same action continuously although I've tried to warn you, then what's the point, I cannot help but judge at that point. It's ridiculous, if I refuse to believe what's right in front of my eyes, then you might as well call me stupid.

Now as I think back on what has happened, I believe the one lesson I've learned would be to not trust others easily. Heck if it's possible to not trust till that person has gained your trust then all the better. Sadly in my case I'm just too trusting towards others. Come to think of it, I've always had trouble learning this lesson. I think I have learnt it after the last incident and then when the next one happens I find out that I have learned nothing at all. I know that I am too trusting, but then once you have broken my trust, there's gonna be hell to pay, apart from that well let's just say there will also be a blow to your reputation and that even if you'd want me to trust you again, I seriously doubt that I would trust you beyond a mere 40%? Like hello.. What's the point of trusting someone that has broken your trust before.. 

I feel really offended when I've found out if a friend of mine has lied to me. Like do you think I'm that untrustworthy or am I that stupid to believe that lie? I may have pretended to believe it but then again if this continues I would just pull out and cut off all ties with you. This is because if you intend to be my friend with a hidden agenda then it would put unnecessary strain on the friendship and then we might as well end it and be happy instead of putting ourselves through the stress of it. 

It is extremely rare that I would actually be able to completely trust that person again after a huge lie. There would always be a nagging doubt that whatever you told me might be just another lie. The idiom I believe here would be "Trust is like a Paper, once it is crumpled, it can never be PERFECT again." Sigh.. So in all the walls I've come up against, I feel that some of it was totally not worth my effort.  I may have learnt a valuable lesson but I feel that all of the effort I've put in have gone to waste as I've gotten a rotten fruit. Sigh.. 

On a better note, I have also made true friends for which I'm totally grateful for. True friends are people where you can be your true self in front of them and not worry about what they would think of you. I now believe it is true when people say that you meet your true friends in high school. In college there are multiple layers of filtering to do before you can get to properly know someone. Oh well, with all that has been going on, I'm glad of my growth in the past year. I'm still the same happy go lucky kid that takes life at the reins. 

That would be all for now. TTFN! I shall leave you with a photo of Tanner Patrick. Kyaaaa! He's so handsome! >.< 

-a frustrated kid-

The Close of Yet Another Chapter in my Life >.~

It's the end of another year again. Time really flies, in just a blink of an eye another year had flown by and I feel that I have tons of stuff that I have yet to do. *sigh* However, either way the saying 'time waits for no man' is really accurate. For if you let time pass you by, it's gone forever. There is no way to turn back time and even if there is, well in my opinion, where's the fun in life if you were able to re-do something in the very same moment as you had the first time? You Only Live Once, right? #YOLO I think I only completed like 5/12 of my resolutions in 2014! XD hahahah pathetic! I know! However, I did a lot of other things instead. It was a year full of unexpected events and gifts. I love them all. Especially all the time spent with my loved ones, those precious memories are ones that I would hold and keep safely locked away in my heart to reminisce sometime in the future. :) Let's recount some of my favourite moments throughout the entire year of 2014. :) 

My favourite would have to be my recent getaway to Bali, Indonesia. I absolutely love getaways and also travelling. It is absolutely one of my favourite things to do! Travelling brings us new memories and experiences in new places as well as strengthen our bonds. I think that I enjoyed every getaway throughout the whole 2014. There was another earlier in the year where I went to Port Dickson and the Malacca. That was another really amazingly relaxing trip. I would like to revisit these places again sometime. In my opinion, I would say, 'Great company + Great food makes a trip worthwhile no matter where you're headed'. My one wish is to make more treasured memories with my loved ones. At the end of the day, that is all I truly ever wanted. :) 

Next would definitely have to be the festivals!! XD No matter the festival, I definitely enjoyed it to the fullest. This is the time where you would be able to get to know a different culture altogether! I usually try to attend as many open houses as possible. :D Still my favourite festival is definitely Chinese New Year! All the 'Ang Pau' you get to collect and also the reunions with family members and the gatherings and the food!! OMG! The food is one thing I love most about Chinese New Year. That plus amazing company equals a totally amazing and unforgettable memory! heheh

Well, my next favourite would definitely be birthdays! XD Be it mine *i definitely love mine best* or someone else's, I love the planning, the presents and the celebration itself. I also love surprises and I got my fair share this year for my 20th birthday! I grateful that I have amazing friends that I can and will keep for life which are also there with me during the ups and downs. Not to mention my family which is there with me for the rest of eternity! hahah no matter how annoying I get, they always tolerate and help me get back on track! HAH! There's just too much to say about the amazing people that I have met and kept along the way to this point in my life and I'll leave that for another time. :)

Now to move on to my next favourite thing this year. It would definitely have to be the unexpected christmas gifts that I have received from Santa *I totally believe in Santa even though I'm no longer considered a kid* If you're wondering whether I would reveal these totally amazing but unexpected gifts that I received, well HAHA. I'm so not telling you what it is. I'll just tell you a little bit of what it is though. :D The first gift would be me totally caught by unawares of the joy that I thought I wouldn't be able to feel again. So thank you for that. Aaaannndddd the second gift would be in the realisation of a revelation of something truly important to me. :) That's all I'm gonna say about this. It's really vague, I know but then again if I made it obvious then there's no fun in guessing is there? :P The truth is that I am far too shy to divulge such deep thoughts of mine here for everyone to read. Perhaps in the near future when I have gained more courage.. 

Well, that's the end of my favourite things for this year. did you notice? I purposely wrote 4 favourite things since the last number for this year is 4. >.< My new year resolutions will be stated every month if I have achieved that, as usual. I hope I fulfil every single one of them in 2015. :P One thing I know is that I have and entire new list of resolutions which are not the same as compared to 2014. I might try to complete some in between but being the lazy bum I am, I highly doubt it. >,< Hahah this is all I've gotta say for my last post in 2014. I hope 2015 will bring even greater memories for me to add to my treasure box. 

At the stroke of 12 tonight, my entire slate will be wiped clean and this would be the end of my 20th chapter in life. Thus, when tomorrow comes, it brings with it the 21st chapter of my life and a new white piece of paper and also some utensils for me to colour, doodle, draw, scribble, and yeah you get the point. hahah So.... till tomorrow comes, Sweet Dreams and Happy New Year! May the new year bring joy and happiness! 

-an kidult-

P.S kid + adult = kidult XD

Who would you choose?

Which path would you choose if faced with such a decision? Here's the problem, the girl has fallen in love with a guy, let's call him guy A, she confesses her feelings towards him but gets rejected for some reason. Then, she soon meets another guy who later develops feelings for her and decides to confess. Although guy A rejects her confession he still treats her really nice and good which is exactly the way guy B treats her. Now here's her dilemma, she's in love with guy A but at the same time she also loves guy B. So which should she choose? Confusing right? In my opinion I only see three options. One, she can choose to wait for guy A. Two, she can choose to accept guy B's confession. Three, she can choose neither guy A or B and just stay single.

My choice? Option three of course! Neither! :D

Why did I choose neither? Well here's my reasoning. Guy A has already rejected me. I would definitely be heart broken and sad. :( When guy B comes along and treats me well, well i feel that its kinda convenient don't you think? I believe myself to be in love with guy A problem is he rejects my confession on whatever basis, but then again do I wait for him to come around or do I let go and try to get over him. Move on. Two very simple words yet difficult to comprehend. Sometimes when we believe we have  moved on. That may not be the case, perhaps our brain has believed so but our heart isn't ready to let go just yet. Takes a lot of factors to come into play and the drive and determination of one to 

I'll further explain my choice now. Since guy A has rejected my confession, I would of course be heart broken and sad. :( Then comes along guy B which is well just convenient. What better way to heal broken heart than to just get right back into the game! Guy B treats me really well, then confesses. I feel that I may still have feelings for guy A but at the same time I also have an attraction towards guy B, which leads me to the conclusion that guy B may be a rebound relationship. Which is really bad and unfair if that's the case for guy B. So in the end since I'm so unsure and indecisive so I guess I'll just go go neither guy. It's safer and that way no one gets hurt. Haha! That's why my choice would be neither. Not being sure and just jumping into a relationship is not good at all. I find that relationships like that brings a lot of conflicts in the future. :) 

That's all there is to it. :) I know I said I'll further explain but then this is all that I could think of on why not to choose either of them. :/ This is the end of my trail of thought .. Heheh Well, please drop a comment to let me know what your take on this is. :D TTFN! 

-a confused girl-